selectiveparticipation

To my mom

Posted on: January 12, 2014

I was listening to Eminem’s new album the other day when I came across “Headlights” and was moved to tears. Not just because I love his music but because of how this song hit home. My family wasn’t taken away by social services nor do I have kids but the message of the song and the lines he said, certainly got to me.

I was raised by my single mom until I was about 6 years old and in those six years she did everything in her power to give me everything she could. No matter what, she did. I’m not sure if I’ve ever given her the credit that she deserves. When I was a teenager I always said that she didn’t care. I was a brat, simply that. I regret all the words I said, now that I’m older I see the error of my ways, I don’t want it to be too late but to this day we still have a complicated relationship. We have improved so much though, looking back on how we use to be and now, wow. I don’t want this to be the end. I want us to have a good relationship and I just want her to know how sorry I am, for all those words for not being as thankful as I am now.

She wasn’t perfect, she did make mistakes, she did say and do a lot of hurtful things that honestly did mess me up in the head. But she was trying, her hardest. She deserves everything, which is why I’m going to try harder.

Quick update: I just got back from a weekend with my family and I had a really good time. My mother and I got along great. So far, so good.

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