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Archive for May 2014

I’ve been working on my frist video on the collab channel with my friends for a while, including many melt downs with different editing programs, exporting, editing the video itself, it not coming out as I had imagined it and repeat.

But now that im all done and it just went live, im beyond happy. It’s pretty late so I know it won’t do so good with views but I’ve never cared for that.

Something that I created in my mind now has a physical form and its a beautiful thing. It’s still rough around the edges but its my baby.I’m currently working on my other projects and next weeks video, as well as trying to stay productive. Lets see if I can continue this pattern. But not post so late lol.

check out the video here! I would love to hear any feedback

 

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Today I woke up sick, tired and no will of getting up. I called in sick and went back to sleep for hours. I’m still not feeling so  good and so lifeless, but here I am.

When I was working last year, I felt like this, I wasn’t going anywhere, I would just get through the day only to get home and lie down, completely lifeless and no creative bone in my body.  And repeat. I feel like this is my life now and like I’ve mentioned before, I’ll wake up one day at age 40 to realize that’s all I’ve been doing with my life is getting through the day.

That’s not what I imagined in my life. that’s not what I believed would happen to me. And yes, it is true that I do need this job. But I’m trying to push myself and work on projects here and there so I can one day find out what I want to do with my life and do something with it. During my breaks and lunches I’ve been planning and working on all of my projects. When I get home and on my days off I have been working on them as well. I feel so much better about everything. I want to be able to do this. I want to prove to myself that those “silly dreams” that everyone would shun me for, aren’t silly at all.

It is hard for me to continue this mindset and I did have a mini meltdown at work on Thursday, but I know it’s not going to be a walk in the park. So here I am, inspired and finding my will to get up in the morning again. Even if I was down today, I’m trying to get back up.

And speaking of projects, me and my friends have gathered together and decided to create a girl collab channel, we see different guy collabs all the time. The only girl collab channel that I’ve seen has to do with makeup, which I love but I want to show all girls that makeup isn’t the only way we have to do things. So if you’re interested, you can watch our trailer here: We start uploading tomorrow! (I’m still awkward on camera.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHQqm-I1oFQ

Now back to bed to rest so I may continue my journey.

Who doesn’t love going somewhere with a certain someone and you be the talk of the whole event. Their friends high-fiving them and congratulating them for having you as a date. It feels pretty good if I do say so myself.

But, something that I preach from the mountain tops over and over again, don’t let yourself be just arm candy. Don’t be that girl/guy that people bring along just because you’re good-looking, dress well or are charming. Being those things isn’t bad, but don’t let it define you.

Be the person that has something to talk about; projects, what you’ve learned, your aspirations, what keeps your mind ticking at night when you’re trying to go to sleep. Those things that make a person unique besides their appearance. Being something nice to look at gets old real fast.

 

Let your personality and what’s inside your mind shine above all else. Because your beauty will fade but that light inside your eyes that shines when you talk about your dreams, doesn’t.