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Who doesn’t love going somewhere with a certain someone and you be the talk of the whole event. Their friends high-fiving them and congratulating them for having you as a date. It feels pretty good if I do say so myself.

But, something that I preach from the mountain tops over and over again, don’t let yourself be just arm candy. Don’t be that girl/guy that people bring along just because you’re good-looking, dress well or are charming. Being those things isn’t bad, but don’t let it define you.

Be the person that has something to talk about; projects, what you’ve learned, your aspirations, what keeps your mind ticking at night when you’re trying to go to sleep. Those things that make a person unique besides their appearance. Being something nice to look at gets old real fast.

 

Let your personality and what’s inside your mind shine above all else. Because your beauty will fade but that light inside your eyes that shines when you talk about your dreams, doesn’t.

I recently went to New York for the first time to see Ed Sheeran live at Madison Square Garden.

Why yes, I did fly across the country for a concert. This is the third time I’ve seen him live, the same set and I am still in awe of this man. If you’ve never heard his music, I highly recommend it, if you ever get the chance to see him live, take it. I have never admired an artist as much as I admire him. When I heard that he was going to play MSG, I was ready to go through the hunger games to get tickets to that show. Thankfully; I didn’t have to kill anyone and was able to get floor seats for his show! I then procrastinated and booked my flight, where we were staying as well as asked time off from work, last-minute (but what else is new.)

The day finally rolled around and I was off to the airport with a copy of Enders game for company. I landed in New Jersey and started my journey to Brooklyn where we were staying and of course, being me, I got lost for about 5-6 hours. I eventually did get to the destination. As I collapsed on the floor all I could think about was:

A. I really need to work on reading subway maps

B. The air isn’t as polluted as I thought and

C. I’m in New York, I actually did it.

Since I was a little girl, I’ve always loved New York and everything about it. I even wanted to live there most of my life (I had a poster that I made myself, it said “NEW YORK” in glitter that I hung in my room.) It wasn’t until I truly fell in love with Seattle and Washington state that I decided that maybe New York wasn’t for me, for now. But the fact that I was actually there and able to walk the streets that I’ve seen in pictures and movies, was beyond surreal for me.

I stayed there from the 31st of October-3rd of November. Too short of a trip for my taste but I’ll be visiting again soon, I hope!

In my time there, I went sight-seeing, ate at delicious food places, got to see friends that I haven’t seen in a long time and of course, got to see Ed live. (best show of my life tbh)

My only regret was not being able to see Dylan Sprouse when I was visiting the NYU campus. Maybe next time, Dylan. (Not creepy way wink)

Here are some pictures of my trip!

As the year goes on I find myself learning more lessons, which is ironic seeing as I’m not exactly doing something big to be learning so much. I’ve found out that I haven’t been anti-social for the last four years for no reason. When you’re around bad people, it just keeps bringing you down. Luckily I took care of that problem years ago and yes I did get called names for not talking to people, but hey, that’s high school for ya. Didn’t matter though, real friends stayed by my side and I was perfectly happy. Years down the road, I find myself in a similar situation, only this time it’s not a bad person, it’s someone who is very dear to me, a certain someone who knows me better than anyone else. Someone whom I call my best friend. What happens when that person just want’s to leave your life? Not just that, but leave your life with you need them the most. Then there’s those tweets or status’ that always say, “If he can’t handle you at your worst than he doesn’t deserve you at your best.” Which seems like the logical thing to do, just cut that person out, because that person doesn’t even want to be in your life. But the reality is, that’s hard. You can’t just cut someone out of your life like that, not when they’ve meant so much to you. And I know that the reason this person wants to leave my life is because truth in the matter is, I’m not okay, I’m not dandy, I’m not myself. I’m not that person that he’s known for all those years. I have let this shadow suck me in and take me over. We both know that it’s for the best, he knows that if he sticks around it’ll only make things worse, we’ve always had this crash of personality’s if you will, it would usually balance itself out, usually. Not these times though, these times are different. We both know it and maybe it is time for me to let go. But I can’t. I just can’t. I rather have a million fights with him than go a day without his name aprearing on my phone.