selectiveparticipation

Posts Tagged ‘growing up

I remember watching shows and movies with strong female characters and not being able to get enough of it, pretending to be just like them when I would play games by myself in my room or with friends. One of my favorite memories is after I had watched “She Devil” for the millionth time, I would write little lists on pink notebook paper with a rose pen and just laugh to myself as if it was an inside joke. These days its harder to find new shows with such strong character as the ones I was use to growing up. Which makes me sad. I have a little sister and I want her to grow up with characters just like I did. I saw that it was okay to have girl power and that just because you’re a girl doesn’t mean you can’t go far. Being a girl was always in your benefit in those shows. I’m thinking of  just having her watch the shows that I did when I was her age.

And don’t get me started on video games. What I would give to be able to have her play games that didn’t have to do with cooking or dressing up.  I might as well create my own show and video game at this point. (If I had any art skills lol)

Let me know if you have any suggestions of shows or video games for my sister and I to play 🙂

 

Girl Power?

I was listening to Eminem’s new album the other day when I came across “Headlights” and was moved to tears. Not just because I love his music but because of how this song hit home. My family wasn’t taken away by social services nor do I have kids but the message of the song and the lines he said, certainly got to me.

I was raised by my single mom until I was about 6 years old and in those six years she did everything in her power to give me everything she could. No matter what, she did. I’m not sure if I’ve ever given her the credit that she deserves. When I was a teenager I always said that she didn’t care. I was a brat, simply that. I regret all the words I said, now that I’m older I see the error of my ways, I don’t want it to be too late but to this day we still have a complicated relationship. We have improved so much though, looking back on how we use to be and now, wow. I don’t want this to be the end. I want us to have a good relationship and I just want her to know how sorry I am, for all those words for not being as thankful as I am now.

She wasn’t perfect, she did make mistakes, she did say and do a lot of hurtful things that honestly did mess me up in the head. But she was trying, her hardest. She deserves everything, which is why I’m going to try harder.

Quick update: I just got back from a weekend with my family and I had a really good time. My mother and I got along great. So far, so good.