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I’ve always been the type of person that falls in love with the idea of someone, I like to imagine things that somebody would do for me, someone who I might not know all too well. I fall in love with the thoughts in my head, the person I’ve sculpted them to be from a few short words.

Instead of action, I fall in love with the fantasy that I created in my mind of that person. I hang onto the words that they say to me because I believe in my soul that they are going to be that person I’ve imagined them to be. And when they don’t and their promises are empty, I’m reminded on why the fact that I do that will be the end of me.

I remind myself that actions speak louder than words, that guy that did all those amazing things for me in my day-dream on my way to work, is not the same guy that is in front of me.

I fall in love with the fictional character that I’ve created in my head because that’s all I’ve ever known. I’ve fallen in love with places I’ve never been to and characters I’ve only read in pages on a book because their world is better than mine at times. Fiction is something that I can’t help. Creating is what I was born to do, so whats a girl gotta do when all she can do is create characters and worlds from scarps of things in this life or completely made up all together?

Write.

If you don’t know what NaNoWriMo is, basically, its a worldwide annual “event” where in the month of November you write a 50,000 word novel. Crazy? Yes, yes I am. Always wanted to participate but this year, I’m going to, for the first time. I’ve had this novel idea for a long time now, i have so much invested in the plot, the characters etc. But I never get after chapter five. Even though I know where the story is leading, I can’t get there. If that makes sense. I do have a battle plan, as well as everyone that does NaNoWriMo tells me not edit. If you listen closely, you can hear my inner editor screeching. But my first goal is to actually finish the novel, in a month..Thennnn I have the rest of the year to edit.
I’m scared shitless and beyond excited all at the same time.
Hope the next time you hear from me it’s not from the mental institute!

I’ve been gone for awhile and i’ll make a different post about that, but right now I just want to sort some of my own thoughts about something that I’m writing, in the best way I know how, by writing.

Have you ever gotten an idea for a great story but you can’t figure out the way to write it? Yeah, I’m having that moment right now. I know this must sound like a crazy thing to think about or even sit here at the hours of the night, worrying. I just can’t figure out in which point of view to write it in. I might switch back in forth with first and third person but the question is why am I stressing so much about this.

Maybe cause the more I think about this story and the characters, the more I fall in love with the entire concept of the story itself. Which is why I must be having such a dilemma on the ending of this story. I already have the climax and the final moments planned out in my head, but the ending is still unclear. Both endings will have a sort of sadness to them. One is more of a moving on ending, while the other is the “happy ending” but the way I’m planning to full fill that happy ending isn’t happy at all. In time both endings can be become a happy ending, in different ways. Maybe once I write more of this story I can figure out which way to take it. 

Sigh, Maybe I write and read too much. Actually, there is no such thing.

I prefer to escape this world and go to a world I created. Deal with it

When you enjoy reading as much as I do, you find yourself always on the look-out for something new to read; something that you will be able to get lost in, sort of speak. Where you find yourself unable to stop turning the next page. So you know what the best thing about writing is? The fact that you can create that same feeling and have the power of the outcome all in one. I find myself always saying “what’s a good story to read?” and then today, when I asked myself that very question, ready to go on google and start searching for my read of the night, a little voice inside my head answered my own question by saying, “The story in your head.” I froze, something in the back of my head is trying to get out and tell it’s story. So who am I for not telling it? I’m about to open up my word pad and get lost in the world that I’m creating. That right there, is the best thing about writing.

I’ve been working on a piece of writing for some time. The idea has been around for a while but finally finished another “story” I was working on, thus I was able to start this new one. My good friend Cristina and I worked out the plot, seeing as the idea came up during a phone call we were having. We worked out so many things, from their majors to classes they take. I know this all sounds mental but it all just makes sense to us. Anyway, we may have the main plot and everything worked out but were not sure of what to do with the ending. It can go so many ways. And honestly, I’m ready to try something different. I don’t think I’ve ever written an ending that isn’t completely “a happy ending.” But this story isn’t the type to have a happy atmosphere at all times. I know readers will be attached to the main characters and having something “bad” happen to them isn’t exactly what they will want. But my writing isn’t to please, but to tell a story.